Big plans. Big fears

I've got some big plans for the future. I read a blog by somebody that was sooo inspiring to me. I wanted to just read it over and over again. It was written by a man that had spent 8 years traveling the world and he was talking about the things that he learned along the way. Now I know this doesn't really seem like the kind of blog topic that should inspire business related goals but it did. I'm always talking about what I want to do and how I want to do things on a huge level. I even go as far to encourage other people to meet their dreams as well. But what is so miraculous is that even when I try with my huge imagination and balls of steel to go forward with my dreams... There is a certain amount of fear that is still present. Fear of failure, fear of success, fear of ridicule... Just fear! And knowing that everyone has something they are trying to do and a certain level of fear to overcome, to be successful, it's becoming ever so clear that I mustn't let my fear overtake me. Because as we all know, anything that is worth doing, has a certain degree of difficulty.

The Turkish are European Asians!!

I decided to go with my dad to this Muslim banquet that they were having. It turned out to be at the Turquoise Turkish Center on the Southwest side. It is so pretty here. The building is made of marbles, and tiles and decorated in colorful trinkets and things. The exterior walls are layered in turquiose tiles with fancy designed trim. It's different. It just reminds you about all the different cultures that are right under our noses. The Turkish people that are here are very different than my people in their mannerisms and all. They kind of remind me of the Chinese in the way they speak and the volume at which the speak. They aren't rambunctious like my people at all. But don't get it twisted. Im sure they can hold their ground in an argument or discussion by the way they speak and act. It's full of emotion.

And what I just found out, and undoubtably should've realized earlier, probably from my years of high school education, is that Turkish people are a mix of European and Asian ethnicities. So basically what that means is that since Turkey is the gateway to both Europe and Asia, the Turkish culture as a whole is a cultivation of European Asians with deviations in the amount of each culture they adopt. So basically, the Turkish decide whether they are more European or more Asian. And depending on the way they were raised and their cultural practices that are passed down from mother to child over the decades, determines whether they are more Asian than European. Does that makes since. So, you learn something everyday. I should've already knew that though. I'm a little ashamed!!!! Ha ha! Ya'll tell me if I'm wrong or not.

Living on the edge!! A lifelong dream!

I often picture myself in a state of being where i spend my days trying to figure out what I'll be doing for fun today!!! Do I want to go, skydiving, traveling across the globe, parachuting at magnificent heights, or test driving a race car with a professional race car driver at my side. I want to feel the rush and indulge myself into doing the things that most people think about but don't get a chance to do.
I want to get up and ask myself that day, "What do you want to do today?" And whether the answer is "Go fishing," "Visit Costa Rica" or "Go skeet shooting," that is what I want to focus my day forwards doing!!!
That means, no 9-5 job, working in Corporate America, no blue collar wages, no bosses or responsibilities or restrictions. No fear and requires having a brazen ambitious for life. That statement right there, is beautiful and embodies everything I'm about. The funny thing is that this was my first time even putting it into words. Words that so vividly express the journey I plan to take.

Living cautious vs Living life!!

The concept of living on the edge seems so vividly attractive to me. I want to be able to live a spontaneous life full of risk taking, forward thinking and adventure. Why would anyone not want to? I'm not one to force my beliefs on anyone, but I say that knowing that there are those who would rather plan their days, schedule their fun and live under the veil of fear and cautiousness; letting the world and the people in it and their actions determine what they do and where they go. I know this first hand because my best friends are like this. Growing up I thought that they were exactly the kind of people I wanted to be and they lived the kind of life I so wanted. I got this idea because they are very sociable and friendly and had lots of parties no matter the occasion. They are the type of people who throw a party at every holiday no matter if it's Christmas, Independence Day or St. Patrick's Day. They were going to throw a party. But as I got older and decided what kind of person I was and began to understand myself and them a whole lot better, I realized that I wanted to live on the wild side a little bit more than they did. I wanted to experience all the little aspects of life that are exciting to ANYONE, just to see if I would like it as well. My friends however, weren't like this. I began to realize that they only like to do things that keeps them in complete control. If they can't control the atmosphere and the goings-on of whatever they are doing, they get uncomfortable. This is why they end up throwing their own parties, because they can invite who they want; Family and friends that they are already accustomed to and know how they are going to act. That's cool and everything, but after you've been to one party, you've been to them all. It gets boring to do the same thing over and over and over again because remember, whichever holiday that just passed, there was the same type of party on that day also, with no deviation.
And other things that just drive me crazy is that they choose to live in fear of things they aren't use to. A prime example of that is, going to Walmart. We live fairly close to one another the only thing is they live on one side of the freeway and i live on the other. The Walmart that I go to is different than the one they go to. We were out one day, and we decided to go to Walmart to look for some things. While I was driving over there, they noticed that I wasn't going to their Walmart and started freaking out. "Is this that Walmart on 45 that got robbed. We can't go to this Walmart. Let's go to the other one." It was pissing me off so bad cus they are so scary that they think everyone is after them. Plus, I was no where near I-45. I was on Beltway 8. Who cares if the Walmart got robbed. I hadn't heard of my Walmart getting robbed at all and if it had, they obviously hadn't, cus they didn't even know which one it was. They were just saying that cus they wanted to control where I was going and go somewhere they were use to. I'm not the type of person to let things that happen in this world determine what I do next. And every time we get together it's the same thing over and over and over again. We can't go anywhere with alot of people, or get on elevators, or drive on the freeway. I mean, how can you live with all those rules???? It's ridiculous. I mean I love my friends to death, i don't wish anything bad on them or any uncomfortableness but come on!!! I refuse to be that type of person. That's just the way I think. But what do you guys think?

After years of research!

I can't believe that I actually found a good recording studio in Houston. I have been looking high and low forever to find one that's not in someones apartment, a hole in the wall or run by amateurs and finally I lucked across Music World Entertainment today. Beyonce's daddy's recording studio right in the heart of downtown. At least now I won't have to drive to Tomball to use Digital Services... Not unless I just really want to that is. I probably will knowing myself because I like options. But, knowing there's a good studio soo close makes me happy, elated and many finally I can actually create my product and have something to show. It's getting closer and closer!! Believe it!!! I'M ABOUT TO BLOW UP!!! LMAO!

Trying to Make it to LA!

Man, I have been up for hours seems like just trying to figure out how to come up with $6000 for this California trip. I wanna make sure that I have enough from the jump this time and when I get down there, I have at least 4 months rent that I can pay in advance. Nothing puts the mind at ease more than knowing you won't get kicked out on your ass in a couple months cus the rent's too high thousands of miles away from family and friends. I will be completely on my own again like last time and I'll need to have all my ducks in a row. I was thinking about starting a small recycling business. I hear they make real good money. That or get this blog up and going and try to get substantial income that way. I'll probably try both just to leverage myself. Either way I plan to have several month's of rent, major medical health insurance, roadside assistance and an apartment all set up by the time I step foot in LA.

New Years Resolution.

I plan to start the New Year off with a bang. So many things that I have planned; all of which will be my primary concern come morning. I need to gather for myself the will and drive to see these dreams come to fruition and do all I possibly can to ensure they continuously grow and expand. I've put my dreams on hold for long enough. I need to it the ground running this year and gain momentum as the days roll on. My entire existence revolves around my aspiring dreams and I don't want to live a meaningless, useless life. I will make it happen.