The concept of living on the edge seems so vividly attractive to me. I want to be able to live a spontaneous life full of risk taking, forward thinking and adventure. Why would anyone not want to? I'm not one to force my beliefs on anyone, but I say that knowing that there are those who would rather plan their days, schedule their fun and live under the veil of fear and cautiousness; letting the world and the people in it and their actions determine what they do and where they go. I know this first hand because my best friends are like this. Growing up I thought that they were exactly the kind of people I wanted to be and they lived the kind of life I so wanted. I got this idea because they are very sociable and friendly and had lots of parties no matter the occasion. They are the type of people who throw a party at every holiday no matter if it's Christmas, Independence Day or St. Patrick's Day. They were going to throw a party. But as I got older and decided what kind of person I was and began to understand myself and them a whole lot better, I realized that I wanted to live on the wild side a little bit more than they did. I wanted to experience all the little aspects of life that are exciting to ANYONE, just to see if I would like it as well. My friends however, weren't like this. I began to realize that they only like to do things that keeps them in complete control. If they can't control the atmosphere and the goings-on of whatever they are doing, they get uncomfortable. This is why they end up throwing their own parties, because they can invite who they want; Family and friends that they are already accustomed to and know how they are going to act. That's cool and everything, but after you've been to one party, you've been to them all. It gets boring to do the same thing over and over and over again because remember, whichever holiday that just passed, there was the same type of party on that day also, with no deviation.
And other things that just drive me crazy is that they choose to live in fear of things they aren't use to. A prime example of that is, going to Walmart. We live fairly close to one another the only thing is they live on one side of the freeway and i live on the other. The Walmart that I go to is different than the one they go to. We were out one day, and we decided to go to Walmart to look for some things. While I was driving over there, they noticed that I wasn't going to their Walmart and started freaking out. "Is this that Walmart on 45 that got robbed. We can't go to this Walmart. Let's go to the other one." It was pissing me off so bad cus they are so scary that they think everyone is after them. Plus, I was no where near I-45. I was on Beltway 8. Who cares if the Walmart got robbed. I hadn't heard of my Walmart getting robbed at all and if it had, they obviously hadn't, cus they didn't even know which one it was. They were just saying that cus they wanted to control where I was going and go somewhere they were use to. I'm not the type of person to let things that happen in this world determine what I do next. And every time we get together it's the same thing over and over and over again. We can't go anywhere with alot of people, or get on elevators, or drive on the freeway. I mean, how can you live with all those rules???? It's ridiculous. I mean I love my friends to death, i don't wish anything bad on them or any uncomfortableness but come on!!! I refuse to be that type of person. That's just the way I think. But what do you guys think?
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